If you read my blog and specifically our Me and Mine and Siblings posts regularly then you would be forgiven for thinking that we are outdoorsy people. That we are the kind of family that goes for long walks and endless days outside come rain or shine and will take the children anywhere without a care in the world, lapping up the fresh air and the chance to let the little ladies run around. And of course to a certain extent and in an ideal world that most certainly would be us. But then sometimes a picture doesn’t tell the whole story, there is a bit of reality thrown in too and that reality is me.
I have a joint condition which means it isn’t always possible to throw caution to the wind and do whatever we choose, life takes a bit of planning and winter, and the rain, seem to make this so much worse. So you can imagine how February feels. It is on these days that we aren’t such a normal family. No sooner has summer rolled around and my condition is a little more manageable, then we have Eva’s allergies to contend with! Eddy and Roma? Well they just come along for the ride holding all the pieces together.
Despite these obstacles in our way though we do love to go out and about and I never want to let mine, or Eva’s issues in life stop them from exploring and doing all that they can. That goes for me too, I never want it to get in the way – or at least as little as possible – or to let it define me, which is sort of why I don’t talk about it often and this is something I am still working on even in my 30’s. To this end, aswell as ensuring that we get a family shot each month I adore the Me and Mine project for the fact that it is an incentive to get outside, to try a new, or even familiar, place to make memories and it is always such a lovely day.
Now the reason I say all this is that at the weekend we decided to go along the river on the way to town and, with my sister in tow, to take these family shots. We had a really lovely time and even though it was probably only about half an hour, that time spent outside together with no distractions was priceless. I love to watch the girls just running around, puddle splashing, showing one another leaves and conkers and just being so carefree. However despite the fact it was such a short time, by the return home I was laid up on the sofa unable to move for the rest of the day. I actually fell asleep whilst Eddy took the girls swimming and even through all my pain I almost never do this and mostly adapt our situation or just keep going. But that day I just couldn’t and I haven’t really been able to shift it since. So last night when I really should have been writing, I rested, and cried at how unfair it is that I have to go through this every day, that I don’t want to have to miss out, that I want to jump up and walk for miles or be able to wander around a theme park without worry, and that really we should move to a warm country to help!
Anyway despite this little blip, February has been generally lovely. It has been bookmarked by big milestones, right at the beginning Roma turned 2 and right at the end Eva lost her first tooth. Sandwiched between those have been wonderful ordinary moments too, we have had the most wonderful half term meaning 10 whole days with Eva at home and when I think back on this month, half term is definitely the highlight. We had simple days at home dressing up and doing craft, cinema and park dates, seeing friends, painting pots at a ceramic cafe, a trampoline park trip and spent the weekend and Daddy’s 1 day off at the Sealife centre and LegoLand discovery in Manchester too.
So looking back it has been a mixed month really, February will always be special for Roma’s birthday and half term, and it will always be a little sad too with baby loss on my mind and lets face it the wishing of spring to come. I am really excited about March, there are no big milestone or moments planned but I have definitely come to realise that we don’t always need these to be happy. What we really need is each other.
This is our life, sometimes tough, mostly happy, always ours.