I’ve always been super grateful to have had two children. To be able to give Eva, who was and still is my absolute world, someone to share in hers. Because even though right now I am still her best friend and I wish with every single fibre of my being that this lasts, it isn’t the same as having a sibling.
As a mother I am used to things changing. In that very first moment that I set eyes on my baby girl and held her close to my chest everything changed and since then, it’s pretty constant. No sooner have they (and you) settled into one phase than its time for the next. When I think I have got something nailed they decide otherwise, to change the rules and that that is not the way to handle it anymore. From cluster feeding as a baby, the way I would wind them over my shoulder, the way they like to sleep and when, all the way up to how they like to style their hair or what their favourite book is.